Well, that wasn't my last week of SCS, but just a hiatus from Lima - the apparently most shiong company in SCS.
When i received my posting , i was like WELL FUCK ME. and i was literally stunned , not knowing what to do for like 10 secs. The reason why i reacted this way is because : 1. Im the only one other than Azlan whom wasnt satisfied with the posting / didnt get what we expressed our interest for ( i expressed interest for artillery) 2. I realized that there really is nothing to be proud to be infantry about - everyone gets the CSB , almost everyone has two swords behind their formation badge, but we still train so hard for fuck!?
Also , I do not know why but I was just fucking jealous of everyone else who had something special / different. To make things worse, most of the cadets got artillery - something i wanted to do so as to follow in my brother's footsteps. I just had this feeling of hopelessness and being lost as it was the first time (i guess) I actually missed someone whom I love - my section . Jia Le , Gideon , Azlan, Jared etc. Who was gonna complain about me not bathing ? Who was gonna be as enthu about US army life as I am ? I dont know. But after 8 weeks of Lima , Im gonna fucking pull my socks high and pull through this pro term. The only thing i have in these 12 weeks are the new people beside me (whom I hope are competent) and the drive i have to fucking chiong sua.
With Pride we Lead , Specialists ! Super Chiong Sua!
Btw, the posts before these were all weekly reflections , and i really hope they continue this in Lima so that i can actually update this blog! There is a reason why its not so candid and so serious XD.
So yea, Ill really need a fistful of determination and a strong body to push through infantry and OTOT training man. Hope I do better than the rest , HU rah!
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